Lets go merry merry all the way

Moved on

2008-01-03T11:04:00.000+08:00

A brand new year. This will be kept as a memory for me.
I have move on to:
HERE

^_^

Those times.

2007-12-21T15:23:00.000+08:00

Where had those time gone to..?
In a blink of eyes, it changes.
There's no more spices.

Where had those time gone to..?
The reminiscence of it brought back the 4 feelings.

Drey, i really hope to be like you.
To take things lightly and laugh it off.

By Mandy Moore-Only Hope.
There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

dun ask

2007-12-15T22:41:00.000+08:00

Dun ask me why.
I realized i had no one to turn to now.
Everything seem so strange.
I felt like i have fallen again when i saw those words.

Anyone to make me happy?

sad

2007-12-13T15:39:00.001+08:00

Feeling sad right now.

:(

NRWZD

2007-12-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

This is the 4th time that i am spreeing with her.
A reliable person.
Recommanded stuffs are from nrwzd.

My all time favourite blog spree.
:)

Urges

2007-12-05T10:19:00.000+08:00

Suddenly, i have the craving for japanese food. Lol.

I have moved to the big fish tank.

11 more weeks to go before we unoffically graduate.

dread coming to school

2007-11-29T09:21:00.000+08:00

Omg! This is only the 4th day of fyp and i dread going to school.
I hate doing things that i do not know. You can say i am not one that take up challenges.
I miss thales. I wanna go back to work. Can i replace fyp with ipp?

SIGH!!!
And i am sick, bodu aches, flu, throat irritation and more. I wanna go home and sleep more. :(

Please make the time pass faster and the teachers all good .

fyp

2007-11-27T09:35:00.000+08:00

2nd day of fypj.
I miss the working days.
LOL.

It is so strange here. With newly done up lab and yet not many ppl.
I just hope that it will pass smoothly.
Jia You !!

Happy Birthday

2007-11-24T23:33:00.001+08:00

First, Happy 19th Birthday to me!
I had waited for this day for so long. Lol.
Wanna thank fabian for his super early wishes. Have a safe trip to china. Dun worry, i will accompany audrey. :)
Wanna thank:
Fabian, audrey, crawford, robert and of course Dear for their 12am wishes@ Chomp Chomp.
Lilian for her 12am msg too. :)
Kiwi for his long msg & friendship. Take care in Navy!
Melissa, juli, my sister.
Dear's sister&aunt for their lovely present :)
And of course, BF who accompanied me the whole day without any complaints.
And his presents :)
And more..

Attachment finally over! Fypj starting on monday.
Cutting my intake on food starts on monday too!

Christmas is coming, orchard road are packed with people.
Christmas wishes are long.

Just hope to have a happy life for now ^_^

Bday

2007-11-23T10:53:00.000+08:00

1 more day to my bday and i dun feel excited by it.

Leaving thales for good today.
Time to return to school.

Today should be a happy day :)

Leaving thales

2007-11-20T09:15:00.000+08:00

Leaving Thales in a couple of days and will be back to school.
Wonder how is school life going to be?

Nice food

2007-11-16T23:50:00.000+08:00

Had a very full dinner at chomp chomp.
My all time favourite lala!!
Haha.
I'm tired now. Gonna hit the sack soon.

Bf, :)

back in a happier note

2007-11-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

Am back with a happier note.
Went Super Import night 2 days ago with dear, fab, drey, crawford and zhifan.
The drifting was so WOW. It was real fabulous.

Peeptunes are up.

Dear, Happy 27th months in advance.
Don't be so stress. Rest well.
Don't think too much too. OKAY?

sick

2007-11-06T21:02:00.000+08:00

I am sick today.

Maybe i think too much of certain things.
But i am certain there will be meaning inside it.

Hairy Crab

2007-10-25T22:44:00.001+08:00

Well, time really flies pretty fast.
4 more weeks to the end of attachment.

Considering moving to livejournal, where there can be locked entries.
Mandy, if i move over, teach me okay???
:)

my day

2007-10-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

Met with dear's friends today.
Went to chong pang to eat and talk about army stuffs.

Then we went suntec.
Had a haircut at I*con again.
This time round, i am satisfied with it.
deardear said it is nice :)

I wanted to have glazed and spicy cheese donut...
But it is all sold out -.-
Nvm, shall eat it next time.

Pigpig, i enjoyed my day :)

it ain't easy

2007-10-12T23:38:00.000+08:00

It ain't easy being sandwiched.
Why are they not a normal F that will understand situation.
I do not like to see them bcos i know they will preach.

Talk so much also no use.
I rather shut and zip my mouth and ears.

Evertime when i had to go, i dread going.
I knew i will be unhappy.
What to do? Imperial orders.

Hate it...
I just want to be happy?
How to be happy when i have to obey this and that?
-.-

bad day

2007-10-11T22:25:00.000+08:00

Reached office on the dot. Ok, a minute late.

7 more weeks and i'm gonna be back at school.
Btw, i had stopped taking the sleeping pills. I am trying to revert back to normal. But my eye bag is super black and big. SOB SOB !!!!
A colleague in QA dept even commented that i looked so pale -.-

Btw, the day before, i was at one of the manager's room on the second level. I saw a cute expressor coffee machine. Know MOS burger ice milk tea? The tea cartiage? This expressor come with cartiage. Just insert it into the machine and viola! The expressor will be out. So cool!
It can only be bought in france.

Well, goodluck to darling for his week 6 presentation tml!
Hope you like the figurine :)

Happy Birthday Dear!

2007-10-07T23:16:00.000+08:00

Hello. Its is my darling birthday today!
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthda to youuuu...
Happy Birthday to YOU !!!

Celebrated at Hyatt hotel's Mezza9 with his family.
Had a big feast :)
And a big Birthday surprise from his mom and the staff of mezza9.
A hearty birthday song+cake.

This is my darling!!

Did you enjoy your day???

^_^

This was taken while waiting for a bus to go home.
Quiet environment+scrotching sun.

b'day

2007-10-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

It's BF birthday in 30 minutes time.
Happy Birthday in advance BF!!!!

Caught resident evil 3.
It was so bloody.
Haha.

I cant sleepppppp.....

sleepless nights

2007-10-02T09:23:00.000+08:00

I cant fall asleep last night.
I had to resort to taking flu medication, hoping that the effect would kick in.
Well, it did. But only afew hours later.
Now, i am super duper tired+sleepy.

Working sure ain't easy.
It is the 5th week now.
I hope that it will be over asap, so that i can sleep well.

Btw, i am late for work again.
Bus 27 was stucked in the traffic jam at sengkang.
I boarded the bus at 7.24am.
At 8.08am, i am still at sengkang. LOL.
Haha...

I hope the day would pass faster..

Brother

2007-09-30T21:09:00.000+08:00

I am already very "Frustrated" at work.
At home, i have no peace.
Everynight, i cant fall asleep.
I am just so tired.

Just let me rant it out.
I really have a "i dun know what to say" brother.
I really do not know how to describe him.
She said that she wants to punish him... but yet?
Everyday without fail, i reached home and see him using the computer.
And her? Using my computer.
Her excuse? "Bryan using the living room com, so i used yours"
I told her: "Is this the way to punish him?"
You should have told him "NO".
After i said this, all the swearing came out of his mouth.
-.-

And for umpteen times....
I told you to respect me.
If this belongs to me, i hope you dont touch it.
I know i sound selfish.
But why sacrifice yourself for him?

You cant protect him forever.
One day, he will just get into trouble.
He dont appreciate you, sis, me or every other ppl.

But first, you did not set a good example for all of us.
All i wanted, is a family that dote on me. A family whom i can talk to.
It is very hard to describe what i am feeling.

first pay

2007-09-28T11:42:00.000+08:00

OMG! I woke up late today.
I got to rush taxi down to tampines and i took a bus from there to work.
I am only 5 mins late..

I got my pay !!!!!!

sick

2007-09-19T10:56:00.000+08:00

Deardear is sick.
I roughly know it was caused by headache.
Not sure of the whole situation.

Pigpig!!!! Get Well Soon!!!!

tired

2007-09-18T09:42:00.000+08:00

I am sitting in the office, feeling hungry. :(

I am tired. This waking up in the middle of the night have been occuring for many days.

I really need a good sleep.
PIGPIG!!!!!!!!!

home

2007-09-17T17:31:00.000+08:00

Hello there.

Am waiting to go home right now.
Bored at work. Always want to msn with BF, but dunno where he run to.

Emily and mandy leaving next week.
Sad.. less 2 people to talk to me.

pigpig!!!!!!

BF

2007-09-16T21:41:00.000+08:00

BF requested me to blog.
Well, i am just tired+lazy to blog.

Life now revolt mostly on working.
I look forward to weekends.

13th was our 25th months :)

Caught Rogue Assassin. 3.5 thumbs.

Bf, dont be sad already.
Cheer up okay okay okay?????
:)

???

2007-09-11T23:02:00.000+08:00

I feel utterly emotional and depress.
I dont know what causes it.
Once i steped into the house, the feelings will just come.

Why just i just let it go?
Oic told me to take it easy, find alternatives to solve it.
Double sigh...

BF, i want bao bao. :(
Which i dun think he will view this-anytime soon.

Feelings

2007-09-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

If only i know what the world will come to.
If only everyone understand what i mean, i wont always be ~~unhappy~~.

I seriously dislike m.
If only m dont irked me that much.
But m always like to make me so pissed off.
With m's words, mind action.
I totally dig it.

...............

feelings

2007-09-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

In some events, you do not have the rights to talk.
But when those events changes, only the oppose will see the matter clearly.

I do understand that in life, there is "fake people".
But what i cant accept in life, is the unfairness that is brought upon everyone.
We still, must accept everything that cross path with us.

There is alot of things that cant be said or written down.
I guess everyone has their secrets too.

Talking about secrets, i am those curious kind(Kpo)...
I would like to find out things from top to bottom.
If i heard one piece of info,i would asked till i get all the explainations.

It is difficult to share time...

Thales-1st week

2007-09-07T23:53:00.000+08:00

Basically, i am a IT helpdesk OJT.
The people there are friendly.
And, i made new friends :)

I kinda missed my long, healthy and curly hair.
I hope that it will grow faster.
Any ideas how to stimulate the growth of hair?

I wonder what is wrong with my face.
It had been getting worse! Hope that it will recover soon.

Till next time :)

P/s: Dear, Jia You in FYPJ!!!!

In office

2007-09-06T08:30:00.000+08:00

I am right now in the office, eating my hotdog bread and typing this.
So far, it has been good. Haha. only the walking distance and bus ride is horrible.
I hope that it will faster be over..
I dun have enough sleep..
And i feel hungry all the time.
:(

Thales aerospace

2007-09-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

Attachment starts at Thales aerospace asia tml.
Very nervous.
Keeping fingers cross*

Will be back to update.

IPP

2007-08-31T23:39:00.000+08:00

Coming monday, i will be at a whole new environment.
Very nervous and scare.
Hope that i will have a job that suit me, good supervisor & seniors & nice restroom.

:)

I miss my hair. But i will miss my dear more. :(

Hair

2007-08-30T21:28:00.000+08:00

I had a chunk of my locks chopped off.
I didnt really notice the length till quite late.
The hairdresser did told me about 3 cm.
But in the end, it was 1/4 of my original hair length.
But overall, my split ends are snipped off.
Visit ICON by shunji.matsuo.
Service and cut was overall good.

dear even said my hair is nice. haha.

exam

2007-08-24T23:02:00.001+08:00

Currently in the midst of exams.
3 down. 1 more to go.
Recently, got to see more of my interest. Haha.

Tired now, but nonetheless... "dear! <3 you "

emo-not

2007-08-15T21:26:00.000+08:00

I am not feeling good-emotionally.

Happy anniversary.

2007-08-13T00:01:00.000+08:00

For all the days that came, we overcame it.
For all the days that yet to arrive, we will walk hand in hand.

For all the happiness, sadness, anger and jealousy that we had...
It will still be there till end of time. :)

For all of it...
I will be there for you!
A promise that i will keep.

Happy 2nd Anniversary Dear. :)

ITIL

2007-08-12T21:07:00.000+08:00

My ITIL cert arrived! They are so efficient.

Useless

2007-08-12T00:16:00.000+08:00

Hmm.
Thinking of alot of things.
Maybe i have been walking down the wrong route all this while
I wish to be enlighten.
What is becoming of me?

hmm.

2007-08-08T22:44:00.000+08:00

When i am unhappy i listened to:
S.H.E- 天灰
Nicholas Zhang- 北极星的眼泪
Evan Yo- 我可以

Unhappening now.
Where have all the sweetness gone to?
I am so hating to go for attachment and fyp.
Wonder what will be "becoming" after it.

PIG PIG !!!!

long time

2007-08-07T00:59:00.000+08:00

Been a week since i blog.

Was dining at hyatt hotel last saturday.
somethings are unbearable

2nd year coming up.

Hope baobei come back soon. Honestly, toyata service center is not a efficient place. They dont call nor inform you. Lousy service.

Lately, there is no mood for anything.
I just felt so injustice. I pondered for all the situations.
I just felt that lepoard never will change its skin.

I hate my cross eyes

:)

happy or sad?

2007-07-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

Well, had a nice buffet at Orchard Hotel just now.
Happy 21st b'day, tiffany!

I am suppose to study ITIl, but i am not.
Not in the least mood to do so.

Ai ya. -.-

as the days goes by

2007-07-25T10:38:00.000+08:00

As the days goes by, some matters are unfolded infront of us.
But, at a very weird unfolding. Its like planned.
Is it really so coincident?

It is really very devious. Very cc too.

Anyway, i am going for attachment first. So, hope my upcoming company will be a good company with well lit toilet.

Btw. i find myself not as outstanding, not as comparable. So thats it.

Annoying IT technician

2007-07-23T18:52:00.000+08:00

I met one annoying sch's technician just now.
He came in, using a very "bu shuang" tone and ask us what class are we from? And, no eating in his lab.
Hahahahaha..

His lab? Ha. He dont even have the money to buy over this sch!

After this, he even went to the extend to photocopy our attandance list and submit it to complain.

Please! Those lecturers has much better behaviour and poise then you.
-.- what a kind of "good and friendly sch assistant around"

I <3 you

2007-07-21T10:51:00.000+08:00

Dearest:

I love you,
You love me,
We are one big family,
With a great big heart,
And a kiss from me to you,
Wont you say you love me too.

Hehe. Barney's song is one meaningful song.

Ok, heading out soon.

sadness

2007-07-20T22:56:00.000+08:00

Can anyone feels what i am feeling now?
I think i am getting crazy soon.
Sad for once, then angry, then very happy and high, then sad again.
It is like very very stress.

My whole body already gone hay-wired.
You brought me to heaven and yet, you could condemn me to hell too.

:(

feels.

2007-07-18T12:48:00.000+08:00

The particular feeling is back.
It had appeared very frequently, but sometimes, i do feel bother about it.
Like today.

Very very fan.
:(

disappointed

2007-07-16T12:20:00.000+08:00

I put my trust to a wrong person.
Disappointed -.-

23th month

2007-07-14T23:06:00.001+08:00

The day before was our 23th month. Happy anniversary dear. :)

,,,

2007-07-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

我好伤心。
不知道哪里错了。
平常我这样啊说，你都不是这个反映。

我想说“对不起“
我知道你的心里很烦。不要不开心。加油！
不要生气了。
希望明天会见到你。

<3

cute

2007-07-10T22:38:00.000+08:00

I'm so in luv with my darling's hair now.

He looks so cute.

Feel like biting him when i see him..

so cute lah ! ^_^

past week

2007-07-08T21:59:00.000+08:00

For the past few weeks, i have been feeling very frustrated.

Maybe there have been too many distress, unhappiness and intense revulsion kept hidden.

Everytime, i would tell myself to calm down.

Sorry dear. You should know why.

Anyway, i'm looking forward to the hair appt tml. Yay!

aLive

2007-07-07T00:26:00.000+08:00

This is the new yoghurt that i am into.
There is promotion down @ cold storage.
2 for $2.20

Many flavours.
But i am into nata.
So, only nata and aleo vera for me.

So dear, you know what i like? Haha.

Hmm.. Our sch organised a trip down to Newater.
When we reached there, the group of us were like "hurry up... we wanna go home!" lol.

Nothing much to blog about.
Going to amk hub soon and complain that person for selling me a non useable umd.
-.-

I will welcome baobei home in 3-4 weeks time :)
Yay!

ABC

2007-07-04T19:48:00.000+08:00

I want to be happier.
I know i have been repeating this for the upteen times.
Once i did,things would happen again, and i am back to square.

Ok, lets say about the basic principle of people.
"Respect the person, before the person will respect you"
You must give the person a good impression and he/she will come to respect you too.

But... that is not always true for all human beings.
Because, human for once, have a con.
That is human jealousy.

Normally, it will come to a destructive end.
So, be normal, do not sin to the side of darkness.

Just bring it on.
But when it erupt, it will just get bigger.

Lying low is not the option.

Cheers!!!
P/s: i miss my baobei. I want my baobei back.

-.-

2007-07-04T11:43:00.001+08:00

Sigh.
Trouble sleeping.
Super tired.
Very irritated.
Very sad.

:(

:(

:(

New begining

2007-07-01T00:21:00.001+08:00

Time to say goodbye to Mr Dawson Sewo. Hope he have a better environment outside. He is one of the nicest teacher that i have ever met.

I looked ugly in this picture. My face looked swollen and puffy and my eyes super small -.-

Caught Transformer with darling on friday.
Cool movie. :)

Taken before i went for BTT.

Btw, I failed my BTT as private.
I went thru the qns that i am not sure with dear...
Only 3-4 wrongs. Why did i fail????
-.-
Anyway, i enrolled in the school.
So, i shall be taking all my theories and practicals as a student there.

..............................................

This part here, is specially dedicated to my dearest.

Thou you had fallen, dont despair.
Stand up and walk on.
Good life may not always be problem-free.
Problems are mean to be solve.

Thou it is a let-down,
But think it differently from a different pov.
Reasons might always be Excuses and vice-versa.
Think and consider before you act.
I will be supporting you always.

Thou i had always dislike his way of handling situations,
I can do nothing to prevent it.
I am sad that i can't help you with anything.
But what console me, is that i am still here with you.

Don't despair for anything.
Dearest, i am just a call away.
I will share your everything.
Be happy always !

Love,
Stella.

game

2007-06-25T15:00:00.001+08:00

The infamous Pig Pig is busy engrossing in his game now...

Would You Be There ???

2007-06-25T00:32:00.000+08:00

Would You Be There ???

If I were blue, would you be there for me,And whisper in my ears that's okay,Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,And touch my lips with tender love and careWould you die for me, would you run with me,And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?Would you swear that your love is always true?Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?Would you swear that your love is always true?Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would you be there

If I'm away, would you still think of me,And wished that you would hold me now,Would you die for me, would you run with me, all the way

Would you be there to love, to be with me?Would you swear that your love is always true?Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight?Would you swear that your love is always true?Would you say that you'll always be there,to kiss my pain away.

Would you be there,for me.

dinner

2007-06-24T23:47:00.000+08:00

Just had dinner with dear's family.

Dear finally getting a psp. Happy pig pig? Hehe.

School reopening in a couple of hours time.
Time to say bye dawson, hello kelvin & another teacher.
Gonna miss the slacking time he allows us.
When it kelvin, say hi to extra time, bye free time.
:(

GSS and yet, i got nothing.
No car, no cash, no shopping.
But at least still have a PIG PIG.. ^_^

2007-06-22T22:08:00.000+08:00

Why women cry?

"Why are you crying", a young boy asked his mother.

"Because I'm a woman", she told him.

"I don't understand", he said.

His mum hugged him and said, "And you never will, but that's ok".

Later the little boy asked his father, "why does mum seems to cry for no reason?"
"All women cry for no reason", was all his Dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry. Finally he put a call to God, and when God got back to him, he asked, " God, why do women cry so easily?"

God answered,
"When i made women i decided that she had to be special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world. Yet made her arms gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection many times will come, even from her children.

I gave her a hardness allows her to keep going and take care of family and friends, even when eveyone else gives up through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances. Even when her child has hurt her badly. She has the power to make the child's boo-boo feel better, and to quell a teenager's fears and anxities.

I gave her strength to care for her husband despite faults, and I fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes test her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

For all this hard work, I also gave her a tear to shed. It is hers to use whenever needed, and it is her only weakness. When you see her cry, tell her how much you love her, and all she does for everyone, and even though she may still cry, you will have made her heart feel good."

2007-06-22T21:45:00.000+08:00

我很。。。
我也不知道。。。
我好像被冷落。。。

我好想好想开心。。。

我妈说原意出钱给我做头发。

:)

2007-06-22T20:46:00.000+08:00

Done up abit for my blog.

:( -Thot shall not reveal it.

hug

2007-06-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

It isn't hard to understand my fate.
I just want a better life.

I just want bao bao.

2007-06-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

Went to Borneo motors to do the insurance today. Saw dear car. Below are the pics.

Accident

2007-06-14T22:30:00.001+08:00

13 June 2007 was an unfortunate day.
It was our 22nd month anniversary.
Dear met with an accident near mandai golf area.
Head to side collision with a super big truck.
His car was a total wreck at the driver side.
All the windows shattered.
Heard from people that the car was in a real bad shape.
The truck? It's so big that it was fine.

I was waiting for dear to come back, as i cant go down to the green with him.
Then at 4.21pm, his coach called me and said he got into an accident and they were trying to free him out.
Dear was so lucky, he only have cuts and bruises around his hands, shoulder and face.
Thank goodness.
So, i went over to TTSH, A&E to find him.
When i first saw him, he was sitting in a wheelchair, wearing ttsh clothes.
I was so worried at first, but after seeing him, i felt better.

Dear, you must be ok okay okay okay???
I will always be here for you !!!
Jia You !!!

:)

2007-06-13T00:23:00.000+08:00

F has taken a toll on time.

Happy 22th months anniversary to dear.

:)

life

2007-06-11T22:41:00.000+08:00

Life is still hard, but it is much better now.
Hehe.
I was quite happy/silly for afew occasions, and that made me laugh.
Dear was saying that " like this laugh is much better than you being sad everyday".
I wish to have laughters too and many more to come.

Our family car had arrived. With the car plate no of our neighbour's unit. Haha.
Went to the car park to see the car yesterday.
I was like "wow, got ralliart sticker sio!"
So sua ku right? haha.

Then my mom was like "radiance" all the way. I told her its ralliart, not radiance. so funny.
My dad also seemed anxious of the car. He is not like this. Normally he will be so cool/cold/aloof. Haha.

Ok, blog again next time.
P/s: Must try to get the cheerful, full of laughters stella back. Jia you !

Hair

2007-06-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

I am super duper sad. My hair ends are damaged.
I do not know why. But its just turn out this way suddenly.
Very sad. maybe need to cut off abit of the length.
DEAR, i want go cut hair.

Btw, dear went to "do" his car yesterday & today.
His sis and me waited till we fall asleep.
Haha. then he went to collect his new car plates today.
Nice!

2007-05-31T22:01:00.000+08:00

Enough is said- and it kills.

...

2007-05-29T22:07:00.000+08:00

Well, for the past few days, i did project work and had 2 testes.
And, lacking of sleep+stress, i am sick now.
No one know.

Sometimes, i want to say out alot of things, but i just can't.
I knew deep down that i cant say.

I am ~~bloody sad~~
Does anyone know?

My dear

2007-05-24T21:54:00.000+08:00

I am a happy girl today.
Deardear was sweet..
I just wanted to buy a normal clip, then deardear asked to look at those bling bling one. I said no, i dont want as the price was quite steep. In the end, he asked me what colour i like and he bought it.

I felt so guilty that deardear didnt get to spend his money on baobei's plates.

Happy :) .

Sch

2007-05-22T14:04:00.000+08:00

Hi all, i am right in school now.
Its freezing cold in the lab.
Bf and some some guys ran off to see some "chio" girls.

Its getting harder and harder to talk to them.
Sigh.. There was things and yet he didnt tell me.
Guess they think i am hard to contact.

Sigh.. sigh... sigh...

car

2007-05-21T00:01:00.000+08:00

Mom bought a car.
No more ipod nano for me.
sob sob.
anyone wants to sponsor me???

Dental

2007-05-19T23:31:00.001+08:00

A little trip down to the dental spelled trouble for me.
Few days ago, i scraped out a white filling.
I had a feeling that it was my teeth.

And indeed, the dentist told me that my last tooth decay.
Why? She said i had a small mouth and that i didnt go right in to brush the last tooth. And, all my teeths are very fragile.
So, i did a flouride treatment to make my teeths stronger.
She commented that i am naughty...cos i like eating sweet stuffs...

Poor me... i got to cut down on sweet stuff and only eat SUGAR FREE stuffs.
I got to tolerate...got to see her next week again...

Caught NEXT with dear just now.
A very nice show.
Deardear was commenting that he always introduce good shows to me, while i always wanted to watch those so so movies.
Haha. I just love young hollywood stars acting in those idol movies.
I am a romantic movie sort of person ^_^

I admit that my once in a while ~~depression~~ is back. ~~Or should i say that it didnt really went away.~~
I have signs in it. But i wont comment on how many.

Serious signs of ~~depression~~ include:

-Trouble sleeping or excessive sleeping
-A dramatic change in appetite, often with weight gain or loss
-Fatigue and lack of energy
-Feelings of worthlessness, self-hate, and inappropriate guilt
-Extreme difficulty concentrating
-Agitation, restlessness, and irritability
-Inactivity and withdrawal from usual activities
-Feelings of hopelessness and helplessness
-Recurring thoughts of death or suicide

~~But i think it is getting a tiny bit better.~~
Friends, do not have to worry.
I wont do anything foolish.
deardear.. dont worry too..
I will occasionally rant all out to you .

Its better to say it out, rather then keeping all inside me.

Max

2007-05-17T23:52:00.000+08:00

Poor max.
Brought him to serangoon north for vet appt today.
He has skin infection and its real bad.
Poor him... so cute but very disobedient.
He had a new hair cut which i hate. Make him looked so ugly. BOTAK!!!

Back to me.
I need stress management.
I got to be like BF, breathe in and count to 30.
If not, sooner or later, it will get to my nerves.

I am feeling very bad nowadays.
No one conforting me.
:(

Bf went off with ps and crawford for supper i think.
Sure will race car.
Just dont drive too fast will do.

I am misery.
Living in misery.
I wanna be happy.
No way will i be.
Unless i stop reapproaching myself.

blogger -.-

2007-05-16T09:10:00.000+08:00

Well, this is the only place where i can rant out all my misery.
Last night, i was super irritated and pissed off by m.
Shes making me to look like a fool.
I am no 3 yrs old, i can understand all the situations.

What is the use of 10k when you cant even make up your mind?
And super fussy about it.

Aiya, just feeling very very misery in the f.
last night, i just vent out everything.
I told her, i know i am not clever, i dont have money and what i want, i dont get it. And i went to the shower feeling very sad and tears filled eyes.

:(

Blogger is fine-for now

2007-05-14T19:07:00.000+08:00

Blogger is fine for now.
Wanted to blog out all the things but blogger was often down.

I think that my d dote on my m in a different kind of way.
She's so lucky. My d gave her $$$ to buy a car.
While me? I dont even have my 2K for driving, not even the red nano that is promise to me.
I presonally felt that my d dont like me anymore.
But its ok lah.
I have lots of experience in this area.
The more i wish for/hope for will always be my worse nightmare.
I'm always a lone person. So, its really ok.

My day was ruined by networking.
I only have 5 pathetic marks for the configuration marks.
-.- very disappointed.
I really do not have the talent to study or do anything wise.
I am suffering inside everytime.

My d, m, and all others dont understand what i feel.
I know/ knew that teaching me is a difficulity.
I dont even understand what MR D is talking about.
Mr D will vomit blood if i ask him any qns (i think).
Just like when i asked him a qns today, he dont even know what i am talking about.
All the testes are coming.

Previously, i have a wish, now, i have another.
My previous one is to get marry early and leave the house.
Now, i hope that i can have a normal life. A life where i can understand what everyone is talking about. A life where i will be much more clever.

As evidence, classmate will catch the teacher hints easily.
The teacher will just talk abit and blahblah blah... it will be continue by classmate.
Me? Teacher talk talk talk and yet i will be sitting there scratching my hair.. blur.

My day is just bad bad bad.
I just hope to have a nice sleep when i reach home.
I have been losing sleep recently.
:( :( :(

I may look happy everyday.
I am happy when i can go out.
But deep down, i know i am depress and emotional.

I was tagged.

2007-05-09T13:09:00.000+08:00

I was tagged tagged tagged by kiwi.

Here it goes:
Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

1) If there's fish for lunch/dinner, i would have to smell it. Then i would know whether if it is fresh or not. B'cos i dislike fish.

2) I used to fear touching all kind of machinery operate stuff. e.g D&T works, boiling of water, washing machine. I still do fear those D&T machines.

3) I like smelling my "chou chou" and talking to it before i sleep.

4) I like to keep to myself. I dont talk often. Instead, i observe. -is this consider weird? Haha. i really cant think of anymore.

Oh Ya...
5) I dislike mint.

6) I like those pretty trinkets.I just adore it.- Why is this weird? I love it, yet i am not wearing any.

I think thats all.
I shall tag no one.
It infuriating thinking of all the weird things. Haha!

Oh no.. my secrets had been revealed out !!!!!!
:)

Getting depress

2007-05-07T19:29:00.000+08:00

I guess all my bad behaviour is due to being depress all over again.
I am easily irritate by ppl.
I want this that to be perfect. blah blah.

Then while sitting inside the sch lab, i realized that the depression might be back again. It had gone away for quite sometimes. But now.. i am not sure.

Updates

2007-05-07T15:45:00.001+08:00

Caught spiderman 3 on friday @ marina square.
Went east coast & vivo city on saturday.
Checked the toto result of thur result.
Realized that BF and i won 4 nos.
Only won $90.
He asked me to anyhow pick 7 numbers, and i did. And.. 4 nos are the winning one.

So tired now. Nobody teaching me.
I want to go out walk walk.....

Vivo

2007-05-03T23:29:00.000+08:00

Went vivo city today.
Was walking half way when a guy poped out infront of me.
Guess who?
Its fabian and audrey.
Haha. Exchanged talks and off we go.

Dear went nike bird to buy his golf shoes and polo shirt.
Tml he will be going down to green with his dad and instructor.

Been quite depress/stress over somethings recently.
Sigh. Life's bad for good people, while others are enjoying.

Oh.. i have a teacher who is funny.
His surname is sewo.
I asked him why his surname is so funny?
He said it was suspose to ne seow. but the nurses wrote it wrong to sewo.
Then i asked again.. what about your child? sewo or seow?
He said of course is sewo. I cannot suffer alone. He must suffer with me too.
LOL..

I believe

2007-05-02T20:29:00.000+08:00

May 1st was lili's 19th birthday.
Bought her a necklace. :)
Be happy always lili...
With determination, many things can be overcome.

Last thursday, dear brought me to SSDC for booking of BBT.
He very funny.
He went up to the counter, wave at the lady behind the counter and said: "you remember me anot?... i pass from here and now i brought someone here."

I believe in karma.
I do not know why the sigh of them really irked me lots.
Maybe i dislike CC? Maybe. They should really reflect on their behaviour.
OPPS.... haha. Bf made a promise with me.
If i stop thinking about them and how they irk me, bf going to part with his $$$ every month after July. Hehe. I will make sure that i win the bet cum promise.

On labour day, BF and I went to east coast park with max the fat dog :)
Haha. he walk a distance, the pant and pant. And he just lie there. Haha.
And he poo poo. :( Got to clear it up...
During the night, BF brought me to marina south for the BBQ cum steamboat.
The whole stretch of marina south BBQ and arcade and many more will be close on october. Our government will be taking back the land for further redevelopment.
Bf ate crabs there. And lots of black pepper chicken.

SAD

2007-04-29T23:08:00.000+08:00

How do you all see me as?
I should know the answer.

I always want to please ppl.
I always try to do so.
But i know what i am.

I am not clever.
I am just silly, stupid, dumb.

I have not many friends.
I am just clueless in this world.
I really dont like to be ignore.
As it would make me even more sad.

SORRY BF.
I WILL LISTEN PROPERLY NEXT TIME.

-----

2007-04-27T00:37:00.000+08:00

Not fully back.
Just to update something.

Somethings which are not to be said, will be kept inside me.
No matter how much the sight of them doing some other things that irritate me to the core.. i wont say a word.
I am a gentle lady.
I dont fight.
Nor will i quarrel with them.
^_^
My deardear said i must be gentle lady. No quarreling or fighting. hehe..

I just really really hope that they will wake up.
Because there is a friend there, who is waiting for you all..
Dont disappoint her.

BRB

2007-04-20T00:19:00.001+08:00

Be right back at a more suitable timing.
^_^

Life

2007-04-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

Let me proclaim LIFE.
What exactly is LIFE to you?
Live It Fully Everyday??

To me, LIFE is not that simple after all.
Life ain't what i mentioned above.
Maybe i have a bad past life.
I'm turning 19 soon. I want to live my own life.
But i can't.
I have a family that is so old fashion.
If you say stingy.. but not so stingy to the extend.
If is is old fashion thinking.....it is so to the extend that it will choke me.

Now, thats why i want---always and insist that i want to marry early.
So that i can get out of their "thinking"

But i doubt that i can do so.
Marriage will only come to me in the late 20s to 30.

I want to hit the jackpot too. I want to win 4d/ toto.
So that i can move out.

To the deities above, do you see my suitation below?
Can you help me?
I really really like to do something that i like and want.
Pls help me. I am in need of help.
Yours faithfully-stella.

?

2007-04-15T00:03:00.000+08:00

People who read my blog, do me a favor will you?
Go to:
http://www.imaginecup.com.sg/
Vote for TRAIL BLAZER_NYP
Its bf's sis and her team competing for the imagine cup.

Friday the 13th was our 20th months. ^_^
Bf was very cute lah.
He told me this today: "Everytime i see you start a conversation with deardear......., i will close the window" Haha.
So cute.

I had disappointment again and again.
Life is so terrible when you have no money.
Money is for you to survive outside.
Next time, i want to make it big... enough to cure all my disappointments away.
:(

^_^ ...... -.-

2007-04-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

I was a happy girl today.
Because i went shopping.
I saw a fcuk shirt that i like.
But cant bear to buy it.
Bf bought a mini remote control car for both of us.
We can play with it.

Thanks dear for accompanying me today.
I really appreciated it.

I am tired. Had headache just now.

Why?

2007-04-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

I am going to budget and budget now.
I need the $ to buy my stuffs.
I am left with 1 1/2 clothes to buy.

Went orchard with bf and his sister today.
We had food republic for dinner.
Saw a new brand of colthes in isetan. So ezpensive.. but very very nice. I think is a japan or korean brand..
Ar.... i got lots of things that i want.
Bf was right. But i already plan it long ago before he said it to me today.
I want to earn my own salary and buy whatever i want.
And, i dont(want) have to consider the price and if i need it anot.
I will just take and buy... i wish...

I want to earn big bucks when i grow up. I want to grow out of my poverty.

Sentosa

2007-04-04T21:56:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, deardear was craving for coca.
But we can only eat it if it is on buffet.
For students during lunch time,$15++.
Went to takashimaya. Looked for coca. AND.. they have dinner buffet too. Haha.
Deardear ordered alot of crabs... he love crab..

Today, went to sentosa. WOW. Sentosa changed alot. Haha.
I very very sad and angry with myself.
My skin didnt even change colour. My arms can't be tone already. SAD SAD!!!!
Before tanning, we have brunch.

The very special deck 41 flag. Its actually like pepperlunch. They give you a number and you wait for your food.

Went vivo aftermath.. Bought a top+2 pants.
And.. home sweet home.

Bf was very sweet. He was tired too.
Bf.. next time we go for the whole journey of sentosa.
Bf... <3 you. hehe..

Sorry

2007-04-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

I am sorry.
I do not know where excatly to start.
I am not good with my words thus the long explaination that i have to do.

It hard to describe the situation that is around me.
I, myself, dont even know how to explain it.
I, myself do not know why there is so many problems to it.
I dont have a happy F. Right from the day i am out, i do not have one.
I told myself not to be close to them.. i chose not to be, i guess.

I am sorry. Dont be angry or sad.
You are not not wanted. You are always welcome.
It is me who really really scare of eveything.

Sorry.

Colorgenics

2007-03-30T22:59:00.000+08:00

I did this 1 week or so back.
From the order of colours, i chose(colours that you are most harmony to):
1) Black
2) Blue
3) Purple
4) Red
5) Orange
6) Grey
7) Green
8) Yellow

Enough is enough - you feel frustrated and rejected. You are fighting back and the going is tough. It would be just wonderful if you could be left in peace.

You are looking for excitement and stimulation and you are ready to try anything - but be careful not to take too many risks.

You are prepared to establish a particular relationship that is being made available to you at this time. It could be a satisfactory liaison but there could be a certain amount of conflict involved -try to avoid direct confrontation at all costs.

You are experiencing more than your fair share of stress following an acute disappointment. This may be the result of subconscious conflict between hope and necessity. The tension that you are experiencing following your unfulfilled hopes have given rise to anxious uncertainty. You have no doubt that things could get better in the future and so you refuse to make the necessary essential decisions. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decisions, you are likely to vacillate and concern yourself with trivialities of little consequence.

At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have unadmitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliche 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

I felt that some are right but overall, its not me. I just chose the colours that i like..not harmony with. hehe..

Went to chomp chomp for dinner. Tried chicken chop. This is the first chicken chop that tastes like the chicken wing sold there too. Haha. Full~~~
Sigh. Bf like angry with me. Cos he want to retake "o" english again when he did pass it last yr. He want to aim for a "B". But it is too late.. the registration closed. Sorry... i forgot to check the website for you.
:(

Bored

2007-03-29T21:49:00.000+08:00

I am bored..bored..bored.
Having chupa chup-strawberry now.
Bf went to his sec sch chalet. No one talking to me.

Bought pigeon anti mosquito wet tissue. 1st time trying. Hope that it is good.
I bought a bling bling hair band too.
I cant control. haha. I love shopping. I love pretty pretty things.

My block is under going painting renovation.
Say bye bye to to sensual dark pink/purple, light pink and white.
Say welcome to the sweet yellow,pink and white.
I like the previous colour better.

Going sentosa tml-perhaps?
Really gonna tan the 2 tone away.

New skins

2007-03-29T01:03:00.000+08:00

I am debating if i want to cut my fringe. Maybe, maybe not.
I know that this few days kinda lack of pictures.
*Sorry* But i didnt take any pictures for the past 1 week.

School will be reopening soon. Pray that i will get into the same class as them.
Soon, it will be our turn for FYP & IPP. Thinking of it makes me shrug.

Timetable, timetable, when are you coming out from your dreamland?

Btw bf, i dropped my hp and the case crack. Will you sponsor me a good case? As quote from you " Buy a good case! You hp casing very cheapo!" Haha. so, it is your turn now to buy a fitting one for me. ^_^

marina

2007-03-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

The day before, bf msg me to transfer 20 bucks to him. I was wondering what happened. Like maybe clan warcraft competition. Later he told me that he booked TMNT @ Marina. Went to watch it, its nice.

I actually do not have feeling to blog now.

Till then when i am ready to blog again.

Sorry

2007-03-23T21:35:00.000+08:00

Just now a guy stopped me when i was @ cp.
A survey, i will do it. But... i'm not interested if you want to tell me policy that your company offers.
To that guy station beside bluemax, i'm so sorry.

Haha. i got to lie to him that i want to go buy things. He said, "3 mins also cannot???" then i said... "the shops are closing and i am rushing home"... he sounded so reluctant.... haha... And... i got to walk another route back home because i dont want to bump into him. -.-

I wish.

2007-03-22T21:39:00.000+08:00

I want to get into cosmetic line. Anyone who reads my blog has offers?
I want to earn money as well as fulfill my wish as a beauty consultant.

Alright, i am in kinda very angry with myself mood.
I realised that my looks have detoriate... With.... more and more pimples...
Even bf keeps commenting bad about my face.
I did the normal routine that i have all these years.. But.. Sigh..

What is happening to my eye? Seen the doctor but the swelling is getting bigger. It is causing me headache and my head till the neck is aching and feeling dull.

Mummy.... mummy.... where is the red ipod nano that you promise me? I have been waiting and waiting for it.... I know that you said not to rush you... But i guess you have forgotten about it.... :(

Just my luck.... I want save money...always not enough money to save till my desire amount.... I want this....always must wait and wait...., consider and consider......but thanks goodness that i am quite a patient kind of person.

Btw.. i seldom get money from my parents..except for my weekly pocketmoney and monthly transport fare. I dont ask them to give me weekend lunch/dinner money. I dont even dare to tell mom that i'm sick and i need to see the doctor. I always went to see the doctor without her. She will always ask me to self-medicate but not to my sis.

I just had food poisoning.. and i told her yesterday.. guess what she said? Why didnt you ate the pill at home? why didnt you tell me and i can give you? I didnt even claim money from her for doctor since 2-3 yrs ago. Except for this time when my eye swell... $20 and she dont even want to give me... I used the pocket money dad gave me to pay for it. She didnt consider that what if i dont have the money to eat. Sigh.. No wonder i wont have the desire money in my bank. Double sigh... IPP still need give her $$$. Must be clever like my sis... Count by percent.

And... i dont always get my bf to buy me things. I want to pay myself but he was the one that pushed his wallet to me and said if you dont take, i will get angry. I will have my own limits to it. But sometime, i will still pay myself.
My bf dotes on me.... ^_^

A lovely day

2007-03-20T23:08:00.000+08:00

Today deardear was very sweet. He promised me that he will sleep early and wake up early today. Which he did. Why? Cause his sleeping timing is reverse.
He only sleep when the sun rise and wake up when the sky is black. Haha.
But i guess the sudden gesture means trouble. Cause, he is feeling unwell now.... and he's sleeping.
So, i guess he will wake up in the midst of the night and sleep again in the morning.

Had laksa for lunch at food republic.
Follow by, we caught 300 @ lido digital. In that big cinema, there was only a handful of people. Overall, its quite a moving story but too bloody. And, it is my first M18 show. Hahahaha...

After the movie, walked over to forum gallery. Toy'r'Us. Was thinking of hard rock cafe for dinner. But when i saw the price, i said no. I know deardear wanna eat it. Next time we go ok? Promise that i wont mention the price anymore. :)
Genki sushi for dinner. Eat till we're full.

Enjoyed myself today. Thanks deardear for the effort of waking up in the morning.
And......... I am NOT lazy today. I blog about what happened today. ^_^

i'm sick

2007-03-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

Went out with lilian last saturday. We went shopping. For girls, life is all about enjoying... ya??? Haha..
Went to vivo city, ps...
Had dinner @ Glass house-Fish&Co.
Reached home, went into my room and sat on my chair. I felt so drained.. so terrible and after 5 minutes of sitting, diarrhoea.
Normally, i wont feel this way after a long day of walking.
During the night, i felt so hot. Woke up and diarrhoea again.

Went to have swensen breakfast with deardear on sunday. After that, diarrhoea. Sigh. Afternoon arrived and i felt that my body is breaking. So "suan". Diarrhoea again twice during the night when i even took diarrhoea medication. Woke up and 3 plus to a very very hot room and i was still feeling terrible.

Went to see the doctor today are being insisted by deardear..
All the medicine are so so so bitter. Blah...